Adrift, floating in the brackish waters

Was it only a month or so ago that I was immersed in the beauty of the above?

How in prayer I felt like I was there reaching out with tender love, humbled yet filled with this glorious scene of love's great suffering.

All seems dark, adrift in rapid waters tossing and turning

A moments peace inside I seek to return 

Am I so weak and easily lost?

Is my faith so superficial and tenuous?

Nowhere to rest my eyes without seeing people's pain

Darkness clouds my heart, makes the Light seem so distant

perseverance and trust, hope and faith

all I have, more mental exercise then heartfelt

the heart feels dead inside save the yearning within

So once again I crawl through the muck hopeful

once again I beg for mercy

once again i return to this place wondering

once again hoping lessons will be learned

hoping I shall do whatever He tells me without hesitation or failure

Hoping in my weakness I shall be strong enough