Over the last14 months I have traveled from my happiest to my lowest, happiest when I said "Yes" internally.  Lowest when the roads that lead to a "yes" were filled with "no's"... It's ok because it forces me to surrender and to look at myself more plainly, honestly. To discern hopefully maybe better what I am to be in this weird life and odd world.  The wretchedness of my being, my thoughts, my behavior... the beauty of what the Lord has given me.
  "All for Jesus.  All for Jesus.  All for Jesus."  Mother Teresa of Calcutta..... what more can be said?