It has been a weird, rough few weeks spiritually. Hard time sleeping, even harder focusing on my prayer life. It seems like everything is a struggle, like trying to climb in high altitude without oxygen, tools, or training. The more I try the further and more difficult the battle, the worse my bad habits want to win. The more I feel so far away from God. The more I have to remind myself "Trust in Jesus. Trust in Mary, she will lead you to Jesus" Oh but the struggle, the interior fight, the long drawn yearning and lost feeling.